From the recording Dissolution
Abnormal state - song description (from Dissolution)
“Abnormal State” captures the exact moment where identity stops behaving as a continuous line and fractures into unstable memory fragments. Set inside the album’s recurring haunted forest, the track follows a protagonist trapped in a looping mental terrain where every remembered version of the self appears briefly, glitches, and dissolves into ash.
Driven by rigid, mechanical rhythm and coldwave textures, the song contrasts physical movement (walking, reaching, searching) with psychological paralysis. Each “frame” represents a memory that can no longer be stabilized - faces distort, voices detach, and time refuses linear progression. The abnormal state is not an interruption, but a new condition: a permanent desynchronization between body, memory, and identity.
Within Dissolution, this track acts as a structural collapse point, where reflection turns into disintegration. What once felt like a cohesive past is revealed as editable, unstable, and ultimately disposable. By the end, the subject is no longer losing memories , they are witnessing the system that held them together fail entirely.
Lyrics
static in the bloodstream
someone rewired the hours
nothing fits
nothing fits anymore
I woke up inside a sideways room
gravity chewing on my shoes
mirrors blink but never reflect
just a smear of borrowed flesh
Clock hands twitch like broken teeth
seconds coughing underneath
language spills but won’t behave
syntax digging its own grave
Say it backwards
it sounds more true
Say it backwards
I dissolve in you
I'M IN AN ABNORMAL STATE
tear the sequence, mutilate
nervous systems oscillate
I'M IN AN ABNORMAL STATE
cut the signal - detonate
every thought disintegrates
I'M IN AN ABNORMAL STATE
Neon veins and plastic prayers
I stitched my shadow out of air
every face is slightly wrong
like a glitched, unfinished song
Teeth in wires, skin in code
something heavy in the throat
try to scream but it delays
buffering for seven days
this is not a failure
this is a condition
this is not a body
this is repetition
I'M IN AN ABNORMAL STATE
split the self and duplicate
parasites that integrate
I'M IN AN ABNORMAL STATE
burn the pattern, desecrate
identity evaporates
I'M IN AN ABNORMAL
Who is moving my hands?
Who is finishing sentences?
Why does silence hum
like it knows my name?
abnormal
abnormal
abnormal
state
state
state